Letter from my younger self to Me, Now...

George Goodwin Kilburne

Hi!

It's been a long time hasn't it?  Have you thought much about me as the years have gone by?  You're older now, and you've had a lot of experiences in your life.  Have you thought much about me?  Do you wish you could go back to a time when things hadn't changed so much?

Yes, your life has been very difficult at times.  Some of your problems were due to the fact that you did make some very poor life choices.  These choices did change you.  For a long time you were bitter and angry.  You were angry with God, too.  You wanted nothing to do with Him!

What you didn't know, at the time, was that God was using everything for your sanctification.  God loves you now, as much as, He did then.  You were so busy blocking His love and trying to make things happen the way you wanted them to happen, that He couldn't get close to You.  

Yes, some awful things happened to you.  They scarred you, and they changed you, but life is a journey, and you are much wiser now.   You do carry a lot of old baggage, but you are beginning to let go and let God.  You are learning to trust Him.  

He's been there with you, even in your worst moments, but you didn't know it.  You were in a great deal of pain.  I wish I could have seen these things, to warn you, but I couldn't.  Now, looking back, you can finally see some of the reasons.   Yes, you did waste a lot of time in your anger, but God will bring you up to speed as you mature spiritually.  Healing has begun.  This is a grace. 

You have finally given up!  God has won this race!  He is pouring His graces into You as He wanted to do way back when.  It's not easy, but you have begun to accept your cross.  You are now carrying it with joy instead of cries of pain.  You have begun to trust God, to say "Yes," to God.    Again, this is a grace.  You are, at last, beginning to bloom.  

You, at last, realize that:  God does love you and always has loved you,

                                         God has tried you and, for a while, found you lacking, but now, He sees 

                                         you've changed,

                                         There is so much peace in giving your most difficult moments to God,

                                         Aligning your will to the Will of God is what gives you peace,

                                         No one, and nothing, can love you more than God can.

Isn't our God AMAZING!!!!!!

I wish I could have prayed for you back then, but someone has been praying for you.  Don't worry, you'll find out one day in eternity.  Until then, I just have to say, I'm glad you've come to believe that you are worthy of God's love and your love.  God wants you to love yourself, too.  No matter what we do in our lives, if we do it without love, well, we've missed out on the best part of life:: Love!

Until we meet again,

Love, 

Me